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2010-04-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

2010-04-02T19:33:00.001+08:00

I thought I did, but I don't know what to do now. There wasnt any game in the first place....

2010-04-02T10:45:00.000+08:00

2010-04-01T20:44:00.001+08:00

Can you get through my soul?

What if

2010-04-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

Maybe you jus don't understand how deeply I am into you. It hurts to try and convince you that I really2 love you. You should know better.

Sweet dreams.

Me and you and you and me

2010-04-01T02:16:00.001+08:00

I love you, that's all that matters now...

2010-03-30T00:17:00.001+08:00

hmm

2010-03-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

Maybe this is retribution for not appreciating things. It seems to me that I hate everything(well I do actually). But maybe, I should start looking on the bright side of everything. I shouldnt compare with what I don't have, but instead, compare with what I do, to those who doesnt.

Good day everyone (:

Fatty

2010-03-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

This. is me, trying to be skinny.

And this. is me,trying to be skinnier.

What am I supposed to do

2010-03-27T22:13:00.004+08:00

If you cut me,

do I not bleed?

Am I not human too?

WHOOP WHOOP

2010-03-22T05:46:00.000+08:00

FMLFMLFMLFML

2010-03-21T01:41:00.002+08:00

I hate Jasni I wished I cn remove that fucking name of my name. You can go work till you die since you love money. Since money is so impt to you, more than your children and family, I don't give a shit about you anymore.

I hate the word "Mum". I realised it doesnt mean anything to me anymore. I hope you die soon so I don't need to see that face of yours I'm sick of it. Or maybe should I drive you down to your grave instead?

And since both of you love to abuse me...oh thats your new hobby? Ouh I get it... Go ahead. Maybe Im used to it, you know.. the beatings and daily headbangingggs and the pulling of hair, splashing of water to my whole body etc... or mayb I'm just not bothered anymore. Oh Amnah, you still rmbr the paper I wrote when I was p3? Oh you did?? Good. Cause I mean every fucking single word.

To my BELOVED (Im being sarcastic here) sister who are such hypocrites, only being good to me when you all need sth. Elder one LOVESSS to wear/use my clothes and makeup...then claim its hers. WTF!! HAHAHAHA. Oh maybe you're too poor to buy your own clothes.... WHAT A SHAME. And to the younger one.. maybe you just need me just to solve your fucking maths and sci qns.... then gang up with the other hypocrite just to mock me...say unneccesary things and to make me feel like SHIT. YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE SHIT. and then when you say those things which fucking hurt me so deep, you will laugh abt it, acting as if you never do anything wrong. And those things will promote the anger of "MUM" who will then BEAT THE FUCKING CRAP OUT OF ME. WHAT. You think I'm a ragged doll?! You say things like "Oh ya Mum that's your fav child what, thats y you support and protect her" or "Yala, the smartest child thats y you all love her and buy her things/send her to school" that kind of shit. FYI if my mother didnt "protect" me... who the hell will, you bitches??! YOU? when both of you already team up just to bring me down...

and now, my fucking parents are already against me BECAUSE OF ALL THE SHIT YOU CLAIM . HAHAHA. FYI Im not smart . Even teachers in that fucking Cedar school have so much to say about me. and by that... Worsening the whole situation. You all think all the families here are what? Perfect isit? No family problem?! And now without my "MUM", who the hell am I supposed to share my probs!!!!!NB CB U know ure the closest person who I always talk to, now things have happened.... I hate you so badly. I hate you till I feel like stabbing a knife to your throat. And it felt so good when I kicked you, MUM. It felt so good when I punched you.

And to Mr Ang, Im sorry.. you said I hand your work but is inconsistent?! Wth are you trying to say. I hand in ur work, I mark every assignment you give, so whats so inconsistent abt it?! unless Im absent from sch... and you said "it's ok" when I handed up late the next day. HAHAHA. Teachers... And Im still not happy about a LOT of things.... Why do teachers hate me so much?? When I dont taper my skirt... they say I taper. ughhh. its really annoying. All thse biased teachers.

First parents, then siblings, then family then what? now teachers? Wtf.

FML

Do I deserve this?

2010-03-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAA YOU ALL MAKE ME LAUGH SIAA why do i get a mother who likes to beat up her own child,a father who talks cock and likes to beat his own child and expect her to do fucking great in school,siblings who go behind your back and bring you down insult you,make you feel like shit, and since your family has pushed you to a corner till you dunno what to do, of course you will go to your friends(who else), then the family will blame you for gg out too much. How the hell are you supposed to sty at home when what they do is bring you down?!!! and mock you...till you cry and cry and cry to sleep.. while they laugh abt it feel as though they had done nth wrong. Go to hell each and every one of you. Ive had enough. 6 yrs is just too much

Updated Much?

2010-02-25T23:08:00.010+08:00

Ha ha. Ive been so busy with work.. that I have no time to update a proper post. Oh look there's dust everywhere! -.-' You know sometimes I wish that everything would go away... like seriously everything. I somehow feel that teachers hate our class. well they do.... pfft.

Why do ppl like to demoralize those who are weak?

That feeling sucks. I need a cigarette so that I can puff away all my worries.(cheh kidding). My only wish now to get sick. Ya I know it sounds crazy but I seriously need a break. You should have seen the lump of eyebags I have now. I swear to God I look like a freak. -.-. Why the hell do my friends live so far awayyyyy..... I want to talk to them like how I used to...)= Lucky for me, bby is there for me(: ooo i love him dunno what to do without him. But study first k?

Anwwww, I hate school. Im sick and tired of it. Imagine we all have to survive school for a few years....which equals to forever. Sometimes I wish I was smart, a genius maybe. I wouldn't need to study then. I don't get why certain ppl have fucking smart brains and can absorb things that are taught so fast. It's really unfair. They just like... zoop zoop(sound effects) and tada! It's all in their heads. I always find myself comparing me to them. I feel so... small.

And when things dont go MY WAY,(i told you im a perfectionist which is really really anoooyyyingg coz things dont turn out PERFECT), I would just be so stressed out. Trust me, I cnt handle stress well. The only way is to shout my emotions out like what I did back at home at 10pm out the window which the neighbours would probably be sleeping by then but I dont care coz I really feel stressed out and I HAVE to let it all out, or sit there...and, cry. Which really doesnt work coz the workload is still there. -.- Its not like theyre gonna POOF!(gone) how I wished that would happen.

I just hate hate hate hate hate school C*DAR makes my life MISERABLE. I hate it there. I shouldnt have gone there. I shouldnt. But I am in it... arghhhhhhhhhh. A few more months left to spare and Im fucking out of this place. My life totally revolves around school. Everything is about school. Almost every single thing I do is related to school. WHAT KIND OF LIFE IS THIS. They make O sound like its soooooo.... IMPORTANT. well it is. but the way they put it for me is like : Oh you have to get 6-7pointers or we will kill you. I bet other schools(or most) dont enforce that kind of impression to their students..

The only thing holding me back is of course my mum, and friends. The rest cn ALL DIE. FML.

14 Feb-Valentines at East Coast(:

Overdue overdue overdue picss. hehehe. There's more but lazy ahhh.

K bye babis.

kinetic particle theory

2010-01-23T00:01:00.004+08:00

So basically as u all can seeeezzzz hahaha, I have barely any time to blog. Pls remind yrselves that every friday(TGIF!!!!) i shall blog. Ive gotten a little crazier have I? Due to all the tests this week, I suspect my brain had gone through a major meltdown, hence it has malfunctioned. Now, I have to reboot the system and start completing my hmk!! mekk.

Armph. I hate schoollll. Bah, O level's in 8 months, bt I feel as though it's tmrw. I suffered huge brain damages in school. Tormented and tortured by the heavy load of work, this innocent creature was tossed around like a rag doll. And I'm telling you, the work they give us there, is fucking a lot. worse than hell. I dont know if I can cope. I was just telling Atikah if I had to commit suicide, I have to do it at the foyer, and I will end up jumping down from the 3rd floor, head first, and then landing in the middle of the compass.(which really explains that my work should be there and not THE UGLY LOOKING thing) HAHAHA.

FML.

A new chapter

2010-01-02T01:46:00.005+08:00

Shake off the "why's" and the "what if's" and rid yourself of confusion. Whatever was - is in the past. Whatever is? That’s what's important. The past is a brief reflection, and the future is yet to be realized. Happy new year everyone~(:

Lovely

2010-01-02T01:35:00.004+08:00

lovelove. More on fb(:

Mixed Emotions

2009-12-16T21:59:00.003+08:00

Hehehe

2009-12-10T04:52:00.004+08:00

Adorable little batbat(wombat)

Hahahahaha. Now you look at that.

Ion^^

Batbatttt!

Updated

2009-12-08T01:29:00.005+08:00

Art, yet again. -.- Time chck: 1.30 am.Have loads of catching up to do. Mekk. I really love holidays, wished it lasted forever. But we all know it wont. Grr. I feel like a child now, like as though I wanna throw tantrums at anything I dont like or to get anything I want.

I miss everyone, Nenek, Kak Idah, Atuk and my friends; esp Lili. I realized something that I am in dire need of.. I lack of socializing -.- Hahaha. Sounds silly but the last time I did was probably months ago. yeh yeh, sch comes first bla bla. ughh it gets on my nerves every single time. Last time I rmbered having a PROPER holiday was in sec 1. those timess~ HAHAHAA You all should have seen my kening.

And Yes, I finally got the wedges Im dying to gettt~~~~ yeyy yeyy Love my bb(: We went shoppppping!!!! At last. And I still ought to plan to buy presents for everyone. Still broke as ever, Izah.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Lu punya muka macam taik balik g cebok ahhh!" -Acai, Bohsia

Love it. Toodles *MWAHS!*

Pretty

2009-12-07T00:35:00.002+08:00

Pretty pretty fireworks display a Vivo last Wed, had a blast with close ones. Love you nenek(:

2009-10-31T16:43:00.001+08:00

Oh well. I'm off by myself then.

2009-10-30T21:52:00.002+08:00

Trying to concentrate as much as possible.... Arghhh. I can't. I cannnn't. shingz man.

The past is a brief reflection, and the future is yet to be realized

2009-10-25T22:08:00.006+08:00

You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret.

I realised that I need to enjoy and be contented in anything, whether good, or bad.... I need to change my perception of things. The way I see it, Im hating every single shit that happens to me. Then isnt that reality?! See, if you look things at a positive way, wouldnt we live in a happy happy world?? HAHAHA.

Ever wondered if things had always gone the way you wanted it? It may seem appealing but at the end of the day, everything would be in a mess... Right? That EVERYTHING, life, would be so perfect......But *knocks some sense into your head* you know it isnt. Fact is, everytime you overcome obstacles in life, only then you'll be a stronger person... *winks*

To look at a positive perspective at every negative isnt an easy one... Who said it is? Just have to be lil more... patient.. and try to be less hotheaded (I'm working on this one) Haha! Things are opening my eyes to see now.. If there werent any setbacks in life...how would I ever become this person I truly am now?

Moreover, after what had happened tday.. (I tell you, lately A LOT has happened... bad ones, good ones, even STRANGE ones) haha, I just think, that I would rely on fate, and be more careful next time..Though Im quite sad, about certain things... I just hope everything would turn out fine in the end...

I'd pray to God, that the path that I'm leading now, this destiny that I choose.. is the right one. Insyallah. I reaallly2 rely on Him...

Do you believe in miracles?

Lovestruck.

2009-10-23T21:34:00.005+08:00

Everything's back to normal. *winks*

2009-10-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES

2009-10-18T13:27:00.002+08:00

Lili: Thanks Lili, wish you were still here)'= how are u sweetie?

Kak Ayu: Haha, I guess so, now exam's over, i'll be freeeeee to do what I want!!! hee hee.... and thank u, hope u are doing fine (:

Chikanoz: Ye syg, i tauu hahahaha mwahs!

Tammie: YES, I KNOW, LIKE FINALLY. my gawd i hate school, to the coreee.

2009-10-14T23:17:00.010+08:00

In life God doesn't give you the people you want. Instead, He gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you, and make you exactly the way you should be.

Have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry? And didn't you wish that you could go back into time when everything seemed so much simpler and carefree? Those are songs that are the soundtrack of our lives... the ones that bring back childhood memories, best friends, first love, first heartbreak... just, the memories.

Then there will be this point of time in life when you start to realise..that these memories, the bad ones, will come back down on you, hurting you badly, but in return, those good ones, will protect you...

Until then, you realise.. certain things are just better off unexplained.

I hate everything, down to every minute, every second of this feeling!

2009-10-12T00:28:00.002+08:00

If payback is a bitch and revenge is sweet then I'm the sweetest bitch you will ever meet.

Nyehahahaha

RINDUUUUU

2009-10-11T23:11:00.003+08:00

I miss my two little angelssss!! )'= !! pfft. gah, aint they so cute and sweet.. theyre twins btw, hee hee.. arghhh want to pinch pinch their cheeks! Exams are driving me nuts, I swear! damn damn damn.

And aniways I just rmbered I have Maths paper tmrw....I;m supposed to be sleeping now........But I'm not! Nyekk. The fact that I havent completed ART....is making me really really worried. Dang! I HATE ARTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!

(In a foul and pissed off mood) BYE.

I dont give a flying fuck

2009-09-28T23:11:00.002+08:00

Life's a bitch, and then you die.

You gave me hopes yet, crushed my dreams to the ground... Ive put my heart and soul... Ive put every inch of effort, every drop of sweat into this. Ive put everything, my time, my hard work....And you knew how long it took to complete it, you knew you were the one who asked me to finish it JUST before mid years...you knew... Shocked, just to know that you simply didnt have the courtesy to fucking tell the work was thrown away. HOW ABSURD! Oh! How rude! You teach us, Cedarians to be honest, but where the hell did you fucking put yours? hah

Just another year of silent torture, another year to put up with everything, another year, to be free.

You may be a top school, you may be known for a school with high standards and strict discpline, but to be honest, YOU SUCK LIKE FUCK, CEDAR. you're such ass and dont think that I would ever respect you.

Daydreamers dream

2009-09-28T23:02:00.002+08:00

You open the door and see soft linen,
Do you stay up or do you sink in,
to a world where reality is like liquid dreams?

You walk into a room,
A luminescent glow comes from the window;-
a soft white light, projected by many colours
You sigh.

You put on your oldest nightgown
The cotton thinning filled with memories,
removing your pink hair tie, Mama tells you,
"Time for bed"

So you wash your face, like you wash your day's troubles,
And brush your teeth like Papa polishes his shoes,
then only do you climb in,
Although you fear the quiet at night.

But as you cloak yourself in linen, in your favourite blanket,
You feel a whole lot better,
Because the monsters will go away,
And the happiest moments will engulf you
And you will dream about ponies, dragons and knights...

Until you wake up, little girl,
Your fantasies will follow you,
Your memories will protect you,

You wake up.
You pull off the sheets.

You live, a daydreamer's dream

School's starting soon )=

2009-09-14T03:59:00.001+08:00

A veryy veryyy good morning!

I hate people at Geylang. Freagging flooded with mats and minahs. Bersepah sume. And they look at me as though they've never seen a girl......More like as though I have a humongous big fat hairy mole on my face or something. Grr. I know..... must be the eyebags........But on the contrary, I had fun. hee hee.

Ok I want to continue with my work now, bye bye!!

2009-09-12T22:04:00.003+08:00

i love u darlingku manja hafizah!!!

alin chikanoz

Replies

2009-09-12T14:56:00.003+08:00

Lili: Hello lili, U suka baca my blog? Thank you lovely... its been a while huh, I mean, since we had a proper catch up meeting... and yes, you should come to Cedar soon to see my workk (: I miss you... idk why, its just that thing are starting to get back at me... like how we used to spend a lot of time together, i really missed that.

Janiah: hey ho!~ Yeap I told him, hm gimme ur add? i'll add you up at msn i guess? Then we exhange numbers.. and dont worry I'll pass to him insyaallah. and thankss~ Yup2 meet up soon alrite...

Kiki: heyy kiki! Long timeeeee... hee hee.. sorry la, I dont online often... btw izahLOVE@hotmail.com.. my email add for this accnt.

Isya: Betul la, takkan nak bedek kan? hee hee^^

Allyyyy: Tak bilang u ada blog)= anw, i miss you a lot, asal I kol smlm tk dpt sey?

Ecak: hee hee^^ Batman bin Suparman?? I pun tak tau.... Letak je, random... Btw, your number maseh same kan?

Syu the Awesome: Hello Syu, Yeah. I realised that too, I hate it.

Leena: Yeahh, it was gone because I deleted it and it's up again because i UNdeleted it. hee hee^^

999, I need help.

2009-09-12T13:38:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to those who I miss the most....

Ally, Freda, Feeq, Ira, Ecak, Azlin, Widia, Lili, Ani, Syu, Atikah, Yanah, Tammie, Zhixuan, Mira, Kiki, Keka, Idil, Momon, Haziq, Aisyah, Faris, Shafura, Ain, Raden, Isa..... and me.

To the ones who made me laugh, the rebels, the misfits, troublemakers, ones who made me cry, sad, happy, smile... and to whom I cherished most- my dear Alin,

I miss crapping with each other, talking on the phone till late night. I miss you girls and guys, cheering me up when Im down, making me cry of sadness and of joy, laughing sitting happily like as though we knew each other so well......we did, then. And making funny jokes or even lame ones.... So perfectly inperfect, complete.

We've all grown. For at that moment, all fears rise to the surface: the fear of suddenly setting off along a road heading god knows where, the fear of a life full of new challenges, the fear of losing forever all that is familiar.

A tendency it seems to over complicate our lives and forget what's important and what's not.
A tendency to mistake movement for achievement.
A tendency to focus on activities instead of results.
And as the pace of life continues to race along in the outside world, we forget that we have the power to control our lives regardless of what's going on outside,

Im sorry, because Ive let you people down. Ive put my heart and soul in my work-exams and everything, school... that I lost my mind in the process, that I forgot what Izahlove's principles were. No, izahlove's dead, because the one most important thing she forgot, was to follow her heart...

She did it because she wants a perfect future.
She did it because she wants to achieve the best.
She did it, because she had to.

I missed the old us.
I missed.....being me.

Will you be there to catch me when I fall?

2009-09-12T12:25:00.001+08:00

Do you know how it feels like your life's been drained out?
Do you know what it's like to be me?
Go through something nt everyone cn see?
Do you know what it's like to walk in my shoes?

It's always good to make friends but while your at it be sure to keep the
old ones... their the ones who will always be there for you.

Im sorry I didnt keep my promise, our promise.....

I've wronged them. I miss them... I miss those special times where we all we one... I know Ive been busy, I know I left you all, but try to see it once my way? I'd loveeeeee to meet all of you, I really do. I want us, to be back.. like the old times... Each, and every one of you, are like the angels sent from heaven, always there to protect me. Never fail to keep me safe and smiling. I love all of you, I need all of you, now, more than ever. It's so quiet, Life's so dull now. Now no one calls me gagak, baboon, bello, e.t, izah nyet, izah tot, izah tang anymore....... And I missed that.

I know I have changed... we all have.

See this girl here, Ally.Hee hee. Aint she lovely? I miss her, (esp her.) You were once my best friend, my soulmate.....my sister. So much memories... I miss you terribly dear...

Don't give up you may be tempted to... but dont give up, when you've misplaced your hopeful dreams. Dare to believe again in the impossible. Catch a ray of sunshine,and hold on tightly. The one who holds your hand... will never let you go...

Will you be there, my friends?

Nenekku cute mcm aku!

2009-09-07T03:04:00.004+08:00

Sorry picture blurr sket, but I look cute don't I ???? Mcm anak jepon. hee hee.

BTW, NENEK HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! I WILL ALWAYS LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEE YOU NENEK! (:

Anw, she's not my nenek by blood, but I still treat as one. I love her a lot ok! She's been taking care of me since I was young and Ive already promised her I will take care of her when I grow up.. I still go visit and have sleepovers at her house now and then. hee hee.

But! Now, I rarely have time for her..... My life has been drained out. Tragic. I know I have to study now, Exams are coming and I have to start preparing now. I miss my Nenek. (I would tuck in and sleep with her ok!) I made her cards already(: And I'll be making for her cupcakes today! yayy. Wish I could stay over nek, but I have school the next day)=

And to think of studies.... WHICH IS SOOOO NOT IZAH TYPE, I recall, reminiscing about my friends. It's like, one moment they're here, and the next... theyre not there anymore. Things have changed drastically. I don't know why I have become like this.And I dont know why things are like this too?

What have I become? Some study freak? And I'm probably sure you all hate me now.....

2009-09-07T03:02:00.002+08:00

Maybe this world is another planets hell.

Minah da retired

2009-09-07T02:28:00.006+08:00

Hello readers! (:

Hee hee. Sorry, havent been updating much I guess. Ive been studying +completing my arse off for EYE. I kan minah da retired. (what my friends usually tell me off) HAHA. anw EYE's like in another 5 weeks or so? Screw school.

You know when I was p3 I think, I wanted the power and ability to stop time. (See how matured I was.) Confirm at that point of time you all must still be dreaming of becoming superman, batman................ HAHAHAHA Reminds me of the BATMAN BIN SUPARMAN.

Huak! I'm trying to destress myself by urm, making jokes? But apparently it's not working. Seriously guys, my sense of humour now is like blegh. And yeah, you know, it's cool to stop time. You can have EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING. I've always dreamed of stopping time and then getting to check answers for my exams.......... errr. hahaha. nonsense.

I feel like shit. Breaking down doesnt help. It's like I have so much work put on me plus I have homework and other impt. stuff to do too. Grr. Why can't we have 180 days of sch like in the U.S? )= And Im trying to cope with everything. Hello! Im trying to be as normal as possible. Isnt that hard enough?

Oh btw, I got 2nd for Madrasah! (Yes, in case you didnt know, I STILL go to madrasah) hahahahaa. 2nd's not that bad. But I worked really hard, cracking my brain and making my brain cells go through a near-death experience..... hm, I ought to get first instead. HASIF, I'll make sure you wont get to go through me this time round! Hahh! Muke tadi kat klass maintain uh dpt first. Chill la mac. HAHAHAHAHAHA

AND AND , I AM SO GLAD MY FOYER DESIGN'S FINAL AND MY DEAR FELLOW CEDARIANS, YOU CAN SEE MY LOVELY WORK AT THE BIG BIG BIG ROUND FOYER WITH MY DESIGN ON IT!!!! Hee hee (bey bangga)

Ive got exactly 6 hours from now before school starts and I havent even started on my prep board WHICH I have to pass up tomorrow.-.-

K lovelies ! Tckr~ Byeeeeee~

Guess who's back

2009-08-31T05:25:00.001+08:00

Missed me?

Hahahaha.

TAG REPLIES

2009-08-09T10:19:00.002+08:00

To Singapore: HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY! (speaking of which, I'm going to semangat Singapore sket, and take pride to actually wear a red and white outfit today, k, no-maybe only white)

Riez: Hello Riez! Sorry for the damn late reply. huak. Yep, Ive been busyy lately. Lucky today's a holiday. Havent been updating my blog much also. Then how are you? Stillschooling right? Or working?

Mira: Hahaha. Mira! How are you! Looking good eh. Yup2, biaselah.. Moto mataer aku, kene tangkap glamour sket. Hari-hari hntr aku gi skola. Baik hati plak eh? (:

Atikah: Ye mkcik. I put already! :D

LeenaL: The picture, why? I look pretty right! hahahaha.

Lili Muslihah: Thanks babe, I love you too(:

Old friends, true friends

2009-08-09T10:08:00.003+08:00

SEC 2 hahahaha. I look so kental can. Speaking of which, I miss this girl right hereeeee. MUSLIHAH BTE MUJTABA. Goodness gracious, It's been like months we didn't contact each other. I miss you a lot ok ! Rindu sekali! Sheesh. She has been MIA-ing after she transferred out. You know I can still see you as a Cedarian. Hm, don't know why though. Just wishing you all the best in life, and make good decisions for yrself ok bby girl. You're one strong girl. And btw, thanks for dropping by, love you too alright. and my mum kirim salam hahahahaha.

Assalamualaikum.

Tonight's gonna be a good night

2009-08-09T09:25:00.002+08:00

I miss them. We should spend more time together, don't you think? But, we're all too busy. Tell me who isn't. We have other things to do, bt through it all, we understood each other, and that's what make it so worthwhile. Mwahs!

I got a feeling~
That tonight's gonna be a good night.
Tonight's gonna be a good night, that
tonight's gonna be a good good night~

♥

Bah bah bah

2009-08-05T04:36:00.003+08:00

I know you secretly love me. HAHAHAHAHA.
I want to sleeeeeeeeeeep.
K bye.

Fifteen

2009-08-05T04:05:00.007+08:00

List of things I need to know.

1) I screwed up Chem test.
2) I am broke & in need to save up.

3) I need to start studying.

4) I am a perfectionist. (no, it's not a good thing)

5) I need to stop being distracted.

6) I want to get sick badly but I know I won't.(wait. I just recovered from sore eyes. HAHAHA)

7) I lack of sleep. (which is why I have big, dark round circles around my eyes)

8) I worry too much.

9) I think too much.

10) I think I'm getting paranoid now.

11) I hate mestrual cramps.

12) I miss Tinnie Winnie, kiwi-kiwi, lester and Tip-top (My untalkable friends)

13) I need to pack my bag now.

14) School starts in 3 hrs.

15) My brain's exploding soon.

Btw, today is my very special day. I love my MJ!

K bye.

EYD

2009-08-05T03:06:00.003+08:00

Express Yourself Day.

One thing's for sure. I love my friends.

TAGGIEEE

2009-07-22T22:16:00.003+08:00

TAG REPLIES

Adieq Pampered: hehe, your wlcum.. btw sorry! I dont have seyhhh. )= Why you need eyk?

Leenalsq: Whatever Leena. Well you don't like it it's your problem. Mekk. :D Anw, YA. I can't hve the curry pok anmre even if I wanted to.(due to certain reasons) Pfft. What a sad story. Tragic.

LILI: HAHAHAHA. So selenge la you! and Don't be sad, you know we will all be here if you wanted us to. Love you! -hugs-

Janiah: Yeap2, I linked you already! Meet up soon k!

Apek: Linked!(:

Kiki: Aww, you remembered me.. And I've added you already alrite.. See you there at the chat room! Muahhs!

Anisiah lovelove: Hehehe. I love you loaaaddsss ok! And I am not BABI HEAD, NOR BAKWA. sheesh. remember, the past is a brief reflection and the future is yet to be realised. Don't give up yet alright?

Iznayye: My response, weird?? How so? Haha, and no I don't wanna talk about my skirt, and it's a blessing ok to be shapely! hmph.

Reunion

2009-07-22T06:44:00.002+08:00

It's always good to make friends but while your at it be sure to keep the old ones... their the ones who will always be there for you. I love you all, and I really miss all the fun, both good and bad. Glad to hear that you're all still here.

Forever

2009-07-22T02:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just can't because things have changed so much.

Moments

2009-07-13T05:42:00.002+08:00

The journey in between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place.

Eventually all the pieces will fall into place, until then... laugh at the confusion, live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason.

I'm in such a good mood today,and I don't know why. (:(:(:

Tag tag tagggg(:

2009-07-13T05:09:00.003+08:00

Tag replies
Overdued.

Mira: Hehehe, hello dear.(: I'm fine as always.. Busy with school now..and thanks for the sweet compliment.. I tau I pretty.. hehehe. And miraaaaaa, I dont have your number!)= I changed mine redi.
Syu THE AWESOMEE: Hehehehee! i know rightt! Say thank you! NOW!:D I MISS JELLYBEAN ASHLEY)=
Eifaa: Ahh I see... Patotlaaa.
Leena: WHAT CHICKEN GIRL. Eh btw I love chicken! But chicken girl? It sounds wrong. hahaha. And WHAT MAT MAGNET! I'm not laaaaa. You realise youre the only one complaining about my tagboard being too high tech right? haahahaa.lol.
Atiqah: YALA! I ask you to visit my blog like 713614757563502`years ago and now you want to visit. lol.
Atikah: WAAAAAH! 2 atiqahs today tagging my blog sia(: anw, YA. You got the song from Muslihah's phone ready kaaan? HAHAHAHA. AKU PON!
Widia: WIDDDDDD!!!! ehehehe. Tu hari meet skejap je seyy! Meet ahhh! Anitink I msg u okay! Emmuahs!
Eifaa: Alright then.. you too k?
Lili: DOWN! Sedap kaaaan?
Zeeeeee: OMG! HOW YOU KNOW?! SO FAST YOU KNOW! hehehehehe... YA. Naib. Thanks for rubbing it in eh.:D Love you!
FeeKatek: Linked.(:

"You retard child"

2009-07-13T04:26:00.004+08:00

Goooooooodmorning everyone! Rise and shineeee(:

Omg, it's like 5am now, and I'm very much wide awake. Okk, I want to make this short and simple k?

Firstly, I just wanna wish my babygirl lovelove, Anisiah Shazlin a VERY BELATED BIRTHDAY! (I actually wanted to post it last Fri which is on th 10th, but apparently I wasnt at home. Pfft) I've known her like in Sec 1, but we werent close cause apparently we both live in two diff worlds la (Minah+Metal?, Hahahaha. Doesnt go along too well right?) But anywayy! I'm just glad that she has been my lovely girlfriend now. I realised we have a lot of things in common!(apart from our different background and choice of friends) Right, right? Hehehee. (We always have quality time sessions after school.)

I can't believe you're 15 already sia. And it's so ironic that Syu is actually the oldest among us(Atikah, Syu, you and me) And I can't believe I'm older than u!?

"You retard child." (sounds familiar?)

Hahahhahaa.

Whatever it is, I still love you!

See you in school today, and your new phone!(:

Telling the truth

2009-07-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

The problem is not the problem,
the problem is your attitude about the problem.

I'm going to expose you, sister.

Dont bother.

2009-06-30T23:43:00.001+08:00

Hi. I am probably home.
Im just avoiding someone I don't like.
Leave me a message, and if I don't reply you back, it's you.

Goodbye.

Never will

2009-06-28T02:19:00.000+08:00

Everyone wants to feel normal, but I don't think anyone ever does.

You can call me Mugger Izah

2009-06-27T23:33:00.006+08:00

I am so hardworking I got blisters on my finger for writing too much.

Hell yeah that sucks. And I don't even have time for the computer.(Today is an exception, hehehe.) I've totally become a mugger overnight! Wow, Izah. Great job. -.-And Ive finally completed ALL my Maths homework for the FIRST TIME EVER. Guess I want to score pretty badly huh. Yeah hell do I want to do well for my exams. Ive got 2 days till exams start. And I'm pretty sure I'll screw my humans. Idk whyyy I cnt do that paper. haiyaaaak. I just memorise a whole chunk of information and copy it to my brain and paste it on the paper. And tadaaa. You'll get bullshit marks for doing that. Pfft, I seriously need to buck up.

Anyway, Ystdy, Syu accompanied me doing and teaching me Maths!Love you Syu(: We planned to meet at Afgan Macs. Thought of meeting Lili, but she wasnt there )'= It was going all fine till things started to happen. It was funny and scary at the same time though. hahahaha. MDMC ahhh Syuu. (Mac Delivery Mat Cubicle) Wtf? Still, the idea of that person following me to the ladies?! Downright freaky.

(pics available at Syu's blog)

And todayyyy, I spent the whole day indulging on chicken..?! hahaaa. Yes. Met Anisiah girlfie lovelove at Tpy to get notes and...ate Chicken rice, chicken fillet, chiken nuggets to chicken fingers?! woahh. I seriously need to cut down on that chunk of chicken, chicken!(COCC) blegghhhh. Now, I'm full of chicken. Ive spend my entire holiday on.....work(not chicken), loadsss of work. And it's never gonna end, isnt it? It never will. The thought of me having NOT to work, is when I'm dead probably. Or when doom's day arrive. Pfft. Get a life, world! Indeed my life has been wonderful with azure blue skies, time and space in our hands, with birds chirping all around........Dream on la please. -.-

There's no such thing as freedom.
Im tired of processing that line in my brain.

Leftover unglam pics from Last wed's trip to mug at PP Macs.

Overdue

2009-06-27T22:41:00.007+08:00

Tag Replies

Lili: Wheyyy When you going to meet me sey! Msg tak reply. Pfft. I miss you too babe )'=

PG: HAHAHAHA. Chey. I thought who sia. Hey thats a cool initial btw!

Leena: Wait. Was that a compliment for REAL or isit you were FORCED to say its nice? hahaha. Love you Leena =p

Kaseh: Hello Kasehh. Thanks, I linked you already. Hehh. U too tckr ok! Stay happy owaes(:

Adieq Pampered: Alrite! I'll link you up. So long never hear from you seyy )= btw my email add: izahLOVE@hotmail.com

K bye peepsss~ Emmuaaahs!

Atrika Fest 09

2009-06-22T16:18:00.007+08:00

ATRIKA DANCE FEST '09

Had a tiring, but netherless awesome dayy last Sat. Performance was great! (Except the closing ceremony). We girls danced our very best, and triumphed in the end. Yayyy. Love you Abg Rizal and the girls! Hahaha. The others were also marvellous putting up their spectacular respective dances. Met old friends there too(:

Catching up session

Will get the videos and more pictures from lovely Atikah and Cikgu!

Moviesss

2009-06-18T15:00:00.005+08:00

A lot of suspense sia this movie.. Irritating faggot.Funny, but the Night at the Museum 1 funnier.Damn freagin power ttm! I loveee! Go watchh!

What's next ?

I HAVE TO WATCH ALL THESEEE^^

K toodles! eemuaaaah~

Desire

2009-06-18T12:22:00.008+08:00

To be loved to madness - such was her great desire.
Love was to her the one cordial that could drive away the eating loneliness of her days.

Exclusiveeee

2009-06-17T19:29:00.006+08:00

Heyyy peeps!
Just woke up from my beauty sleep.haahaa. I feel like a pig.

I hate school.
Mid year exam's coming, and holiday's ending so sooooon. My, my. I dont think I really had Holiday-holdayyy, ahh ya know, the holiday mood. Uh2. Nope. And that feeling really sucks.

My brain cells are dyiiinng.
I can't take this crap any longerr. Haiyaak.
I just want to sit back, and enjoyyyy~
Guess fate had other things installed for me.
NO NOT FATE. SCHOOL.

But, let's look on the bright side okayyy.
Since my foyer design will be chosen for our New Cedar Girl's Secondary School next year, I will leak out pictures for you guys! Tell me it's nice! Or I'll whack every one of you who doesnt say it is. haaahaa.

EXCLUSIVE!! I drew 6 timesssss of this same piece okayy! Better not piss me off again. Yay yay yay.

Ok toodless. Emmuahh!~

IM A BIG GIRL NOW

2009-06-15T09:31:00.008+08:00

Hello world!
I AM OFFICIALLY 15!
YAYYY. And I promised myself NOT to go to school even though I HAVE TO. whatever la kay. Huakk. I need time-off.

I'm gonna be an ANGEL today. The horns are just there to keep the halo up straight.(heheheee)

And jyeah finally got my heels+ Mum bought me this watch(: I feel so happppyyyyy after a very long time. Baby's treating me today! (but you know I wont allow it) hahaha. And to people like LILI, SYU, ZHIXUAN, My dearest CLAW..I wanna meet you all up by this week! (before I get busy again) )=

So far, I think this is going to be my most memorable birthday ever.
And to everybody who wished me Happy Birthday, I love you all.

Ok, will be back for moree~ K emmuaah~

Whats the point of school holidays.

2009-06-13T09:19:00.008+08:00

You just sucked out the life that was once in me.

I'm soo busy I don't even have time to spend time with myself. Deprived of sleep for ages maybe. Art preps have to be done by monday. And Im not even done doing this foyer design WHICH I HAVE DONE for the BILLIONTH time.(is there even such word?) Haiyyakk. )'=

Birthday's coming up in 2 dayyysssss yea. Wooh?

Kakak already bough me C&K bag, Adek bought me new makeup kit. Superr sweet kaaaan?

I want my NIKE SLIPPER, NEW WALLET, CONTACT LENS or maybeeeeeeeeee just about anything? *hinthint*

Hello everybodyyyy

2009-06-10T11:44:00.001+08:00

Sup peepos ! Goodmorning to all of you(:
Had a great catching up session with my two wonderful friends ystrday. It felt good, & I guessed I've been missing out a lot of stuff lately. )'=

YA ANISIAH'S BACK BABEYH! Guess I miss her badly too. She abandoned me for a week siaaa. Walande. Haiyaaak. I need some time off, for God's sake and for the 724698344th time, I seriously need to rest. I wanna meet my girlfrienddddddsssssss.

And noww i havee so much things to think about. I haven't even started on my freaking hmk. My UOB painting & ~~FOYER DESIGN.~~ Go to hell.

Lifes a bitch, and then you die.

K toodles!

5 DAYS.

It's not how tragically we suffer but how miracously we live.

2009-06-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

Do you remember the days when you were a child and simply running outside made you happy?
What happened to them?

That, was then.
Reality has exiled me;
I am no longer bound by it's laws

FREAKKKKK

2009-06-04T10:29:00.000+08:00

SCREW ME.

I'm not meeting Haslinda. (yay much?)
Because I LOST MY EXLINK AND WALLET. (5th time)

Wow, so much for not getting so stressed.

I want to kill myself. Shoot me dead, somebody?

2009-06-04T09:10:00.000+08:00

"If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it."

I wanna fly and hold my head up high
I dont wanna think about anything anymore.
No more constant worries or even stress!

But I don't think that's gonna happen,EVER.

Now off to school.Haslinda waiting. ):

Roar.

2009-06-03T12:37:00.000+08:00

Lazy go school ar. Haiyyaak.
(will update a longer post soon alrite)

K toodles.

GRRR.

2009-06-02T20:21:00.000+08:00

School today was sooooo tak perlu okay, perangai dog ah kau!

Assalamualaikum slamat malam(:

Change.

2009-06-02T18:52:00.000+08:00

"...I don't have the right to judge anything. That's the lesson I've learned."---Kurt Cobain

Did it surprise you that I am not who you thought I was?
Did it surprise you to find that I don't exactly stand for what you thought I stood for all along?
Did it surprise you to find that I'm not exactly how I played myself out to be?
That the person you thought I was is actually nothing to what I am.

SEC 1

There was sweet little Izah, innocent and still young. Life was normal, surrounded by the love of her friends.

SEC 2
Then something happened and and she said yes to her painful experience. Not yes as in "Yes, I loved it," but "Yes, this is so. Yes, this happened to me." Instead of "No, I don't want this to be true. This didn't happen to me. They wouldn't have done that." Look at all the energy it takes to say no to reality.
And when she was ready and able to say "Yes, I was hurt. Yes, my life was damaged by others, now what?"

That’s the point when my life started to change.

SEC 3(current)

Let's face it. I've changed. We've changed. We've ALL changed.
We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done.
Do you know what it's like to be me?
Go through something nt everyone cn see?
Do you know what it's like to walk in my shoes?

Haiyaaak.

2009-06-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

ANISIAH SHAZLIN. I MISS YOU SIA.

Dont get swine flu when you come back kay? Haaahaa.

Happy peopless

2009-06-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

Some things that amused me today (:

GO DIE I DONT CARE

2009-05-31T20:32:00.000+08:00

WHY BOTHER PICKING MY WORK WHEN YOU ASK ME TO CHANGE IT 236403745783748015471980 TIMES!!!!!!!!

FUCK YOUUUUUUUU! I HATE SCHOOL.

Freak !!! ughhh.

Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.Calm down Izah.

Seriously, if you ask me to change it one FREAGIN more time AGAIN, tell you what.

I cant be bothered.

Dedicated

2009-05-31T02:04:00.000+08:00

Somewhere between the procrastination...
and the homework...
and the incessant forwards...
and the friendships...
and the calls to each other complaining about crushes...
Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends...
And the "I miss yours, the "I love yours,
and the "What are we doing tonight?"...
And somewhere between all of the changing and growing...
Somewhere between the classes...
And the skipping classes...
And the studying for tests...
And the pretending to study for tests...
And the downright NOT studying for tests...

I forgot...
I forgot what school's all about.
I forgot what it meant to cry...
I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy...
And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart...
I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future...
I forgot that you can't control falling in love...
And that you can't make yourself fall in love...

I learnt that I can love...
I learnt that it's okay to mess up...
And it's okay to ask for help...
And it's okay to feel like crap...
I learnt it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day...
I learnt that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have.

It's the friendships, which means taking chances...
I learnt that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about...
I learnt that letters from friends are the most important things...
And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better.

But, basically, I just learnt that my friends...
Are the most important people to me in the world.
And... without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.

So this is a thank you to all of my friends...
For always being there.

And even if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch...
I still care for you...
Always and forever love all you guys.

True Enough?

2009-05-31T01:54:00.000+08:00

Anyway, no drug, not even alcohol, causes the fundamental ills of society.
If we're looking for the source of our troubles, we shouldn't test people for drugs, we should test them for stupidity, ignorance, greed and love of power.

Please Listen

2009-05-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

dont be fooled by me. dont be fooled by the face i wear. for i wear a mask, i wear a thousand masks, masks that im afraid to take off; none of them are me.

i give you the impression that im secure, that confidence is my name and coolness is my game, that the water's calm and im in command, and that i need no one. but dont believe me. please.

my surface may seem smooth...beneath i dwell in confusion, in fear, in aloneness, but i hide this. i panic at the thought of my weakness and fear of being exposed. that's why i frantically create a mood to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated facade to shield me from the glance that knows. but such a glance is my salvation. and i know it.

it's the only thing that can assure me of acceptance and love. im afraid that you'll think less of me, that you'll laugh. to laugh would kill me.so, i play my game, with a facade of assurance without--and a trembling child within. and so my life becomes a front. i only chatter to you in the suave surface tones...i tell you everything's that nothing, and nothing of what's everything, of what's crying within me. for when i go into my routine do not be fooled by what im saying. please listen careful to what im not saying.

i dislike the superficial, phony game im playing. i'd like to be genuine and spontaneous, and me. you've got to hold out your hand even when it seems to be the last thing i seem to want or need. only you can call me into aliveness. each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging, each time you try to understand because you really care, my heart begins to grow wings, very feeble wings.

i want you to know how important you are to me, how you can be a creator of the person that is me, if you choose to. but it will not be easy for you. a long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.

the nearer you approach me the blinder i strike back. it is irrational, but despite what the book says about man, i am irrational. i fight the very things i cry out for. but i am told that love is stronger than walls, and therein lies my hope. please try to beat down those walls, with gentle hands- for a child is very sensitive.

who am i, you may wonder?
i am someone you know very well. i am every man and woman you meet.

Love you guys loadssss

2009-05-25T03:42:00.000+08:00

Take note: Weird spelt wrongly. haahaa.

Killer exams

2009-05-24T15:34:00.000+08:00

Cute kaaaan?? Haiyaak. (kiwi kiwi, save me?)
*

I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put effort in my work.I put A LOT of effort in my work.

Killerexams+Religious exams coming up and I'm dying studying.(+++ART ASSIGNMENTS)

Really, I've lost my mind in the process. )':

Let it be

2009-05-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mending whole was good as new. What is broken is broken - and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

Update!

2009-05-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

Leftover Pics from last Sat (:

)=

2009-05-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY KIWI KIWI.

Stronger

2009-05-10T19:19:00.001+08:00

So she wasn't the friend you made her out to be. There are going to be tough times that you wish she was there to make everything feel alright. But the fact is, she's no longer your friend and it's not your fault. No matter how much you make yourself feel that's its all because of you, it wasn't. She wasn't the person you thought she was and you have to think, she could have hurt you a lot worse, But she didn't. She only made you a much stronger person.

Watch my steps.

2009-05-04T00:46:00.000+08:00

“The future lies before you, like paths of pure white snow. Be careful how you tread it, for every step will show.”

Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once, feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine, and for once; just once, understand.

But you people just don't.

Too much?

2009-05-04T00:12:00.001+08:00

"I stand for freedom of expression, doing what I believe in, and going after dreams.”
And it's not always about pleasing others.

Oh God, please help me.

Track & Field Nationals 09.

2009-05-02T14:47:00.000+08:00

It doesnt matter whether we win or lose.

"True champions aren't always the ones that win, but those with the most guts.”

WE'RE STILL CHAMPIONS.

(Rest of the pics @ Yus's blog) :D :D

All the way Cedar ! Congrats to those who really did well and, for the rest, great job !

May the force be with you. (PSLs ROCKS)

Friends?

2009-04-27T21:31:00.001+08:00

Wanna see who your true friends are? Fuck up and see who stays by your side.

Dearest Friend

2009-04-27T21:06:00.000+08:00

A shoulder to cry on, a ear to bend. Money to borrow, and clothes to lend. Memories together that will never end, always and forever, you are my best friend.

I've learned my best friend and I can do nothing or anything and have the best time. It's just something that happens as you grow up. You realize its less important to have more friends and more important to have real ones.

I thank you for all the fun times, Anisiah Shazlin, and for cheering up my most of my gloomy days. I love you loads.

Treasured, Kept

2009-04-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.

Back to Square One

2009-04-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

In the end we always return to the people that were there from the start.

Change

2009-04-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.”

Commitment

2009-04-24T15:10:00.000+08:00

So I'm just thinking about how much I don't want my life to be boring. There is so much I want to do and so many places I want to go - but I don't really think it's ever gonna happen. I just don't wanna be one of those people who live their lives somewhere they hate and don't want to.

But I feel like I'm gonna live here forever and not get a chance to see everything I want to see. It seems like dreams are too unrealistic; it seems like my life revolves around school now..

Commitment.

People; my friends

2009-04-22T10:30:00.000+08:00

There's so many different ways to be connected to people. There are the people you feel this unspoken connection to, even though there's not even a word for it. There's the people you've known forever, who know you in this way that other people can't, because they've seen you change, and they've let you change.

Missing you my friends.

Looking back

2009-04-22T09:53:00.000+08:00

It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say "what's the matter with her?"

I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking towards something, or if you're just walking away.

Then, there comes a time when problems starts showing up. If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it.

It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

2009-04-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most.

Random

2009-04-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

DRAMA-MAMAS

Ghost from hotel 626. ft Sharizah & YOOO-sfahain.

Scary ghost from Idk whre ft. Farhain and Hanaaan

I just realised how ugly I looked .

Chocolate fudge brownie.

Lucky coney ice creamy was there to comfort me today.

But after tday's session,

Syu Gang + Lee Gang
= Probably not a good idea.

Can you see it ?

2009-04-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

I feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don't care that I love them. They don't care whether or not I live or die. To them I'm just another girl, just another stranger. To me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left.

Succeeded.

2009-04-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in, and day out- Robert Collier

And alas ! We finally achieved GOLD!

Great job girls, I really love all of you! Guess our efforts didnt wnt down the drain after all.

Coming up : School Performances and Atrika Dance Fest. ^^. Would be looking forward to it yeah.

Still kept alive

2009-03-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

Here's to the nights we felt alive... here's to the tears we knew we'd cry here's to the goodbyes... tomorrows gonna come too soon.
I live for the nights I can't remember with the people I'll never forget.

I miss all of you.

All has been said and done, it's been real, and it's been fun.

Bad enough ?

2009-03-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

Now that school's starting tomorrow, homeworks undone, bags unpacked, I should be panicking.

It's worrying how I'm not even reacting to this. At all. No doubt I hate school. It's just that I'm technically FORCED to study, for my own benefits. Pfft. Thank God I have friends to spare. After all, Cedar Girls is a really damn freakin, good school. I have to admit that you have to push a prson so that one can really succeed, to be able to show its talent beyond its limits and to give its 110%.

Yes, that is Cedar.

We are taught that way. That's why it's so stressful. So stressful that sometimes, I, myself can't take it anymore. At this rate, carrying all the load on me, I'm going to explode soon. Or maybe just die here. Though Ive hated school so much, it's so amazing when youve reached your expectations. To actually achieve a wow-jaw-dropping result in the end.

Well, school's not bad after all. (?)

Ok, goodnight readers. (Now you know why I get so cranked up so often.)